Posts Tagged ‘healing’

Broken

// May 25th, 2008 // No Comments » // Uncategorized

They look harmless enough – thin blades of grass, wispy weeds, compact single dandelions, gangly spearmint – wandering far from it’s original home. Who knew (certainly I never considered) that these once-welcomed signs of spring could undo months of faithful stretching, strengthening, and coddling to an allegedly healing back? Blades of grass, thin, but seemingly stronger than the nerves that cause the knee-buckling pain that shoots and numbs and throws one’s gait off balance enough to cruelly remind me that I am not the same person who once attacked these misguided sprouts with reckless abandon and put them into submission. They used to fear me. Now they mock me into feeling as broken and useless and beaten as I must have once made them feel. It’s as if every time another birdseed fell to take up residence in a once pristine bed of river rock, an osteophyte grew on those vertebrae. Jagged edges of bone, refusing to give way to the bending, twisting, squatting that in years past left behind only gentle reminders of forgotten muscles. It’s time. I’ve heard the message loud and clear – “Move on to simpler and less, while there’s still time.” Quickly now, don’t “dilly-dally,” as Dad used to say. Be ready for the unexpected. I’m intent on viewing this not as a punishment or a burden, but an opportunity to stay faithful. I must. For in faith is our only hope. And not everything that is broken must remain that way.
Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus.
2 Timothy 2:3.

Tea today: Genmaicha

Cinderella in her Prince’s arms

// May 24th, 2008 // No Comments » // Uncategorized

As Steven Curtis Chapman and his family celebrate the life of Maria Sue and her return to God today, I’m sure this song plays over and over in his head. I am reminded of the special gifts we are given, and how they don’t belong to us, but to Him.

Tea today: Bigelow green

Something’s not right

// April 20th, 2008 // No Comments » // Uncategorized

Tired. Short of breath. Exhausted after running short errands. Pale, drawn-looking. Dark circles under sunken eyes. On again, off again chills. At least 6 hours today in bed, restless, yet unable to sleep; now in bed for the night. Says he feels “ok” but I can get “maybe not quite right” out of him. In my business, we call that a “poor historian” but I don’t think he can really pinpoint what’s wrong. I’m praying it’s a healing process and that some good nutrition, plenty of hydration, and TLC will get him back on his feet again. It’s just so out of character. He’s always been the strong one. I’m feeling some fortuitous resignation on his part – something that I haven’t seen in 37 years. Seems like he wants to be alone. Please join my prayers for healing, strength, and resolve. Isaiah 58:8.

Tea tonight: Numi Monkey King Jasmine Green (said to bring “joy of summer to every sip”) – I hope so

Matters of the Heart

// April 12th, 2008 // No Comments » // My Fabulous Life

Another Friday. Another day at work until 8 pm – how many of those in week can a woman take? But the exhausting week was made worthwhile someone I never even got to see today. He was one of the tough ones. One of those to whom we silently give the Cleopatra Award for being the “Queen of Denial ” on his first day of cardiac rehab. We see that a lot with heart patients. His first day several weeks ago, we could barely get him to sit in his chair to do the initial interview. I took a risk with a stern heart-to-heart….”if you were MY husband….” Sometimes that works, sometimes it doesn’t – it’s usually a long shot. This time I hit pay dirt. He stayed. He came back. He kept coming back. He embraced profound lifestyle changes. He lost 40 lb. He smiled more. His skin even looked healthier. He smiled more (did I say that already? It’s worth repeating). He was genuinely grateful for my initial hard-ball approach and for the expertise my colleagues imparted. And he became a teacher and health advocate for others in his shoes. Today he “flew the nest” to embark on his own new chosen path – with his Pilot. Thank you, D, not just for the plant (though it is beautiful), but for being a witness for health, kindness, honesty, and especially the Lord. You are one of those people I will never forget, and who has gently reminded me once again of my gratitude for diligent, brilliant colleagues and the healing power of faith. I prayed for you.

Tea today: The HyVee 75 cents/box stuff that’s a Japanese import. Authentic flavor! An end-of-paycheck tea.